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being a disabled idiot in a third world country really sucks. and my family makes things even worse. i should have never been born. life is pain 24-7. i cannot erase this world, but, hopefully i will be able to eventually erase myself

this crappy situation keeps affecting me even during the start of new year. being blamed for things that have nothing to do with me, being yelled at for things that are affecting the whole town and have absolutely nothing to do with me. i dont even have the right to be angry about my situation, if they see me angry, they become even more toxic. i cannot be angry, im not allowed. i have to be sad. thats the only emotion im allowed to show on my face.

why do i even exist... i only exist to suffer...

Stop the victim mentality, even if you are a victim, The mindset leads to further doom. Use the law of attraction and project positive thought to manifest into reality for yourself. Nothing is holding you back but you.

Edited Jan 7, 2025

Life is full of hardship. Easier times aren't coming, you just get stronger and it seems easier. Stop anger it breeds evil. Find love in the worst of situations. Forcing a smile will release horomones that will make you genuinely happy. Practice happiness in all situations. Change your fucking name. You won't feel useless when you help a loved one die. People will need you. Chin up.

Anger is a choice. Happiness is a choice.

well, i didnt expect anyone to read this. i assumed this game was completely dead. i posted this here, away from any search engines that could crawl into this board, and i assumed there were no players left in the game. i guess i was wrong

Yeah - there are still players on here. You'll probably not see 10 people on at the same time, but having multiple people on the server isn't that rare.